One step closer!

Last Tuesday we met with the caseworker from Children's Home Society, and it went great! She answered all of our questions, was very patient with us, and made us feel really comfortable. After leaving the meeting with her, we agreed that we wanted to move forward with applying to the agency. She sent us home with a ton of paperwork to fill out and the beginning parts of homestudy. They included forms for us to get fingerprints, physicals, background checks, questionnaires about the types of disabilities/issues that we are wiling to take, and questions to help us write our "life stories". {the life story is around 75 questions, regarding everything from our childhoods, dating life, parents marriages, our marriage, and anything in between, and we each have to write our own}

I anxiously filled out our application and couldn't wait to start the rest of the paperwork! I completed the first portion that needed to be mailed (the application), and once that was sent, the rest of the process would begin. And then I let it sit...all week...I couldn't figure out a reason to why I hadn't dropped it in the mailbox. I was busy all week with my family in town, but the hard part was done. Then, on Sunday and church during worship, I realized that I was having trust issues. I was not believing God when He said He will make a way. I doubted His faithfulness. I thought there was no way possible that we could raise $17,000. That somehow, it just wouldn't happen. Once I realized what was holding me back, I was quickly able to bring back to focus the fact that my God is the provider, He is faithful, and that He wouldn't have called us to this if He wasn't going to make a way. I need to trust that, and not just say I trust it. I need to stop looking at the amount of money, and focus on why we are doing what we are doing. We ultimately want to create a family and to bring glory to God. 

Which brings me to tonight...we got our application notarized, stamped and took it to the post office to send it off! We are so super dorky cool that I made my sister take pictures of us dropping it off. I looked at it like our equivalent of a picture of our pregnancy test :)

So as for now, we just continue the homestudy process (all of that paperwork I mentioned, and a few visits...oh, and a whole lot of money!) and wait for approval. This could take a couple of months, so please pray for patience along the way while we await approval :)

We have been saving our coins, and my dad gave me his bucket of change too, along with some other money we just randomly scrounged up, we had $12 over our application fee in our special baby savings account. God is good like that!